Gustavo - Mark Kozelek & Jimmy Lavalle
I came across this song courtesy of
Mojo Music’s Best of 2013 covermount/freebie album. I have to admit, I didn’t
buy the magazine, it was a gift that Christmas. Over the last couple of years a
couple of the songs from this album have stuck out, but none more than Mark
Kozelek and Jimmy Lavalle’s Gustavo.
It must have taken at least a year
of Gustavo cropping up on shuffle
before I really listened to it. At 6:56 (7:11 on the original album
version) it’s not exactly short and this definitely put me off. But the song
has really captured a sense of melancholy that I have been feeling over the
course of January/February. The opening synth melody is rhythmic and with enough gain to
add a grainy texture to the sound without actually distorting or muddying the notes
themselves. This is complemented by an excellent choice in percussive timbres. The
percussion is lo-fi, spacious, and varied, with a tasteful amount of reverb
that drops in and out as the synth builds. Combined, they
create a fantastic, pensive, platform for the song’s lyrics.
A couple of other reviews I have
read noted that the album, Perils from
the Sea, is more a collection of short stories than an album of songs - the shortest track is 5:16. And with Gustavo, you get a true folk song, the story
of an illegal immigrant, known only as Gustavo, coming from Mexico to work. Told from the
perspective of a man who hired Gustavo to work on his new house, the lyrics add
a sense of melancholy to the music. Gustavo is deported and at this
point comes the lyrics that have always stuck with me:
‘He called me collect
from a Tijuana pay phone
Asking man, could you
wire me money?
twenty five hundred for a border
coyote
He needed work and he
missed his family
But I hung up and I
said I’m sorry
But I hung up and I
felt uneasy
I hung up and my
heart was heavy
I hung up and my back was aching’
To me this captures the
essence of the song. These were the ones that resonated and made me come back
for another listen. In these verses comes the focal point of the song. Up until
this point, the speaker seems like a nice enough guy. He doesn’t do much, sits
on his couch, goes out with Gustavo and his friends when he gets bored, and he
lets them crash at his house. But at this genuine request for help, the opportunity for a true act of friendship, he balks. Suddenly he doesn't seem so nice, and as a listener you question his motives.
The whole tone of the song is based
on this moment. The song reflects how the speaker feels, uneasy, slightly guilty, when he thinks back
on that moment. This is where the song really hits me - we all have these
moments from our lives. The moments that we don’t like to look back on. Not
necessarily because they are painful, wrong, or traumatising. It’s because
we consider a choice we made and wonder whether we did the right thing, and in
the back of our mind, we know we probably didn’t.